Monday, October 13, 2008


What is it about music that speaks straight to my soul! I have spent my morning listening to music and it has made me feel amazing. I must admit i have cried a little. There is some thing about a song that can just heal me when i am feeling low. The one song i think i turn to the most is "Jesus Take The Wheel" by Carrie Underwood. It strips me down every time. It speaks to me when i feel so beaten down. Now i am by no means an overly religious person. I do believe that there is a higher power. I however do not take my belief to fanatical proportions as some others do. This is getting off the point anyways, my religion is a whole other blog.

Another song that speak straight to my core is "In The Arms of an Angel" by Sarah McLachlan. This was my mom's favorite song from one of her favorite movies. For a long time after her death i could not listen to this song but now i feel relief and comfort when i listen to this song. I somehow feel comfort in the few moments that this song plays over my speakers. It is like Sarah McLachlan's voice envelopes me and takes me one step closer to my mom in that moment.

"She Was" by Mark Chesnutt is another one that reminds me of my mom. I tend to like those songs that make me feel a little closer with my mom. It is still very hard to deal with my mom's untimely death and i feel more able to express myself through lyrics and rhythms than anything else. The last verse really does hit home and it wrenches my heart every time but it helps me heal a little more each time.

Music is an intricate part of my life. I need it to breathe and to feel. I love to sway with a rhythm. I am sure there are many more songs i could list on here but that is the problem; there are way to many. I have a quote on my MySpace profile that says it all:

Have you ever heard a song from so long ago,
with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry?
and didn't you wish you could go back in time
to when things were simple and carefree?
Those are the songs that are the soundtracks of our lives...
The one that bring back our past.
-Best Friends-
-First Loves-
-Broken Hearts-
Good and Bad!
This to me says everything. Songs are a soundtrack of our lives on earth. We use songs sometimes to describe our feelings, emotions, point in life, and situations. We use them to convey love, anger, happiness, and strength. Rhythms and lyrics put together can make us feel something. They can make us feel these emotions that too often we push away. I have songs that i sing to my kids that make me love them more and they love them as well. I am sure for the rest of their lives when they hear "When You Believe" by Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey they will think of mommy. Or maybe when they hear "Who Would Imagine a King" also by Whitney Houston they will always see my face and smile.
There are also songs that remind me of my husband. Most of them newer songs. "No One" and "Like You'll Never See Me Again" by Alicia Keys come to mind right off the bat. Those are songs that take me to a special place that only my husband and i share. A love so happy, so pure, and so genuine that i cant explain t myself so i use a song to help me.
Some of my favorite artists sing a variety of music. I love it all. Country, R&B, Rap, Gospel, and Oldies. I love Pattie Labelle. She is one of the few artists that can bring me to tears instantly. I love the way she conveys so much emotion into her songs. I don't know how many of you watched the "Clash of the Choirs" last Christmas on NBC but i loved that show and it was for such a good cause. The one performance that stands out is Patti Labelle's choir sang "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" and it broke me down. I cried and smiled and it made me happy to be alive and struggle to survive. I ever thought that song could do that to me. It made me feel like i could fight more, push farther, and love harder all because i want to make it "Over the Rainbow" lol.
So what is you favorite song and why? Does it bring up certain emotions? Do you like to listen to it alone or with people around? Is there a story to go with it? Let me know what your soundtrack to life is!


AM said...

Im sorry your mother passed away. My mother passed away (as untimely) 8 years ago this month.

Angela said...

Lauryn Hill has a few songs that really get to me (Zion, Tell Him) Love Song from Third Day.