Praying and Praying

Here lately I have been praying a lot. For a number of things. Sometimes i wonder if God thinks i am just whiny.

I have been praying for patience a lot lately. It seems i have been doing a whole lot of yelling and not enough loving. I am stressed and worried and just not in an overall great mood. The yelling only adds to the stress and bad feelings. I feel like i am spiraling into a bit of a depression. I pray for help with all of this. Most of all the patience.

I have been praying for God to help me with the bad habits i possess. Despite the many tries i am still smoking. Maybe more now then ever. It has always been a roller coaster for me. I get down to less then half a pack a day and i tell myself, "ok now is the time to quit". Then it is like my body rebels and i start smoking like a freight train again. It is a vicious circle. I don't want to smoke so i ask god to take the addiction away. To help me not want this anymore.

I spend a lot of time praying for those around me who need his help.

I have been praying a whole lot for him to guide me to what i am suppose to be doing with my life. Am i suppose to just be a mother and wife? Do i need to go back to school? Do i need to find a way to get a job? I feel so lost. I need His guidance.

Then i sit and think. Am i asking Him for too much? I don't think i am but i do think i am asking for things and then not listening to the instructions. I sometimes feel like he is showing me the way but i am just missing the turns because i am too busy trying to avoid the potholes.

Does this happen to you? I know God promises he will be there for us but he does not promise that the road we walk will be without holes and bumps. He never promised a even flat road just a solid one. Is this my problem? Am i just not doing what he is leading me to do because i am to busy trying to avoid the bumpy road?

How how i wish things were just simple. There is so much to do and never enough time to do it in. So much stress and not enough stress relievers. Too much yelling and not enough smiling. Too much! Where is the balance?

I guess i need to pray more. Listen more. Have more faith that the answer he gives is the right one.

Prayer Request

I have 2 prayer requests tonight.

Please can everyone pray for Baby Stellen and his family. MckMama had to take him to the ER tonight because he was not breathing very well and his heart rate was very high. Please send some healing vibes their way.

Prays also need to be sent to Brittany and Baby Kaci. Brittany has been struggling through this pregnancy with various illnesses and landed in the hospital dehydrated and having contractions. Please keep her in your prayers tonight that she will recover quickly and all will be well with baby Kaci.

Thanks everyone!

Prayer Request

Hi all just a quick post here to ask for some prayers for a sweet bloggy friend of mine. Brittany is pregnant with her first child and just found out the baby's heart seems to be enlarged. She is having a little girl named Kaci. Please send many prayers to God tonight for her and her family so that they can be strong and that he would heal any complications that little Kaci might have. If you would like post a prayer request on your blog or spread the word. All prayers are welcome. Thank you all!!!

Not So Happy Day

Our family is in need of prayers today. My husband's cousin died last night. It was very sudden and very unexpected. He was only in his early to mid 30's and had a wife a 1 1/2 year old son. After going to the ER yesterday morning complaining of back pain he was sent home. They gave him a few shots and a bottle of pain medication. Later yesterday he walked to the store and back home. They said he sat down to watch TV and just passed out. They were able to revive him but he passed away once they arrived at the hospital. I have not heard the final word but the doctors were pretty sure that it was a massive heart attack.

My MIL called me and told me and then i waited till Marcus got home to tell him. I spent a good deal of the time between finding out and telling my husband worrying about how i would tell him. This is a very very close cousin. They were best friends and very close. It has not hit him yet and he said that it probably wont til the funeral.

I ask that you all pray for Drew's family and ours as we move through this horrific time. Drew was such a kind soul and would have never hurt anyone. He was always the first to ask if you needed anything and always the first to help. If the old saying is true that "the good die young" than he was one of the good. He was a loving soul mate and wonderful father. He worked hard and too care of his family the best he could.

I am hoping this will be a call to my husband and i to get our health together. We don't eat right by any means as much as we may try and we don't get nearly enough exercise. My husband looked at me last night and proclaimed that he didn't want anymore fried foods in our house and i agreed. It scares the bajeeshus out of me that at anytime i could lose the love of my life. We do not know God's plans for us and it is scary. So if you could please send out prayers for the whole family.

Prayers Needed

Hi everyone! I am requesting thought, prayers, or what ever it is you believe for Ramblings of a Redneck Woman. I do not know them personally but have been following there blog. She is having a very complicated pregnancy and needs prayers. Pls go over and let her know you are supporting her.