I Wish I Knew...

Why i have been a big ball of water works this past week.

I swear to you i have been crying over everything.

Good, bad, sweet, sad, ugly, pretty.

It has all made me bust into tears at one point or another.

Last night after Hubby and I were cuddled up in bed we started to talk.

It was one of those talks that you wish you could have every day.

You know the ones...

So intiment, deep, and emotion filled. Where truth is the only thing that matters and so you just lay your heart out there on the line and wait to see what happens next.

We talked for almost two hours. About everything from silly stuff to the more serious.

We laughed, I cried, we hugged and kissed.

In the end i discovered that i love him more then any words could ever express. We could talk til we are blue in the face and nothing i could ever say could mean as much as my heart feels.

Today he took the kids to the grocery store while i slept in.

When he got back he walked into the bed room and put a bracelet on my wrist. It is one of those little fake gold plastic things that you get for 50 cent out of the bubble gum machine.

I cried and thanked him. Because for me it isn't about the price or the show, but about the meaning. The simple fact of the "I was thinking of you".

I don't know how much longer these water works are going to last. And i don't know if i care. Because today, and for the rest of my life, i have the best man in the world to wipe the fallen drops away.

Random Dozen - 10-21-10

1. Do you prefer to read the book or see the movie? Most of the time the book first then the movie. I have even put off seeing a lot of movies just so i can read the book first. It isn't always better, like in the case of The Blind Side, but i still love my books.


2. What is your favorite holiday and why? I love love love Christmas. It was my Mom's fave holiday and by default mine. I love the togetherness, the smells, the food, the music. Honestly there isn't much about it (besides the stress) that i don't like.

3. Which do you like better - the mountains or the beach? The beach most definitely, but that could be because i live in the rolling mountains of West Virginia. Isn't the grass always greener on the other side?

4. If money were no consideration, what vehicle would you drive? For me personally a 1986 Candy Apple Red Corvette with a Jet Black T-Top and black leather interior. For a family vehicle a Kia Sedona. 

5. What is your favorite cold-weather beverage? I love coffee with Almond Toffee creamer, or Spiced tea.

6. How do you communicate most often with your friends: phone, email, text, face-to-face, or Facebook? My bestie i talk to at least every other day via phone, but most others it is text or Facebook.

7. How do you receive your mail? Mailbox on the porch, at the end of the driveway, down the street, or post office box? On my porch.

8. Of the four basic personality types - sanguine, phlegmatic, melancholic, and choleric - which is your strongest? Which is your least evident? Sanguine or Phlegmatic would have to be my prominent and Choleric my least.

9. What do you miss the most about being 20? Well since that was only about 5 years ago for me i would say nothing really. Ask me again in 5 more years.

10. How long from the time you get up, does it take you to get ready to walk out the door in the morning? Usually about 20 minutes if i am just taking the kids to school but about an hour if i have somewhere to go.

11. Who handles the car maintenance and pays the bills in your family? Hubby handles all the car stuff and i make sure all the bills are paid.

12. For those in the US, how many states have you visited? For those outside the US, how many provinces/other countries have you visited? I live in the US and i have visited 12 states that i can think of. California, Texas, Tennessee, Kentucky, Ohio, Maryland, Pennsylvania, Virginia, North Carolina, South Carolina, Georgia, and Florida.

Sione' - 10 and 11 Months

Oh my dear sweet boy,

Where has the time gone? Can it really be possible that in just a months time you will be 1? When? How? Why?

It seems like just yesterday i had you. Now you are 11 months old and getting so big.

 Can we talk about those curls? Those beautiful, bouncy, shiny, curls! They make your Mama want to do a little dance. I just want to eat them up they are so delicious! You just couldn't be any more edible if you were actually made of chocolate. What really gets me is the little bitty tight curls right on the back of your little neck. They just make me squeal. Now if only you liked having your hair brushed all would be good.

That face! Can we talk about that face! Those eyes and that smile and those 4 little teeth! Yes 4! Almost 6 as you seem to have another 2 trying to break on in. I have a very very hard time telling you no. You look at me with those big deep eyes and give me that beautiful toothy smile and i just melt into a big pile of Mama Goo. I use to think i ran this house but now i know the truth. You! It's all under your control.

You are so big! Bigger than either of your brothers every thought to be at your age. You weight 25lbs and are 30 ins tall. Only half a foot shorter than MJ is at almost 5. You couldn't look more like your Daddy if you were his twin. You are walking, no wait, running like a pro. You can climb up, on, over anything that you can get a grip on. I fully expect to find you spinning from the ceiling fan any day now. You definitely give Mama a good workout.

You eat anything given to you. I can not complain that you are picky. And as much as we have tried we can not wrangle you away from that Binky. Oh well with time you will let it go. You are a great napper and sleeper. So much better than the days past. I enjoy every minute of you, even when you are cranky and mad. Life with you and your brothers is so exciting. You all show me something new everyday and make me feel blessed to the max.

You love your brothers so much and they you. You play with them every day and love your time with them. You love to chase them or ride with them in their cars. You play peek a boo with them and bang on the pots and pans to make a band of 3. It is truly music to my ears to hear such laughter and joy from the 3 of you.

I really truly hope this last month moves more slowly. I cant imagine you turning one and i am not ready yet. So please baby boy, for Mama's sake, slow down. Take your time growing up. And always remember...

I love you more then life.

New Me

I have lost 15lbs in the last 2 months. No real clue how i have done it other than puttin in the work. I have been going to the gym at the recreation center while the kids are at football practice. So that is 4 times a week i am gettin my butt in the gym. I have been trying to eat at least 3 meals plus a snack a day. I am not a big breakfast eater so it is hard to make myself eat it. Plus i was sick for 2 weeks so i am sure that aided in the weight loss lol.

So since i lost this weight and plan to continue to lose more weight til i am back to my pre-3-baby weight, i also decided that i needed a new hair cut. I decided short and easy would be best and yesterday i did it. i must say i absolutely LOVE IT!

 This is right out of the shower.

 5 minutes later...

 after a little gel...

 i am styled....

and ready to roll!

With 3 kids i cant tell you how much of a time saver it is to just be able to shower, towel dry, and gel. I am done in 5 mins and ready to do what ever i need to get accomplished. No fussing with hairdryers, straightners, or anything else. Just wash, gel, go!

So this is the start to the new me. I am excited to see how my journey is going to go. I am trying to change a lot more than just the physical, but once you feel good with the outside it helps to have confidence in everything else.