So Different

This pregnancy is so different from my first two with the boys. It makes me wonder if maybe i will get my girl this time. It is just over all different. Almost everything have been a new and different experience with this bun in the oven.

For instance the cravings are a plenty! With Phabian i really didn't have any strong desire to eat anything. I know Tuna Salad tasted really good but i did HAVE to have it. I did have an aversion to meat (other than seafood) but i don't really know how you compare that. With MJ I only had one craving and that was Jalapenos. I ate them on everything but once again i could have lived without them also.

This time, this baby, all i want it breakfast food. I consume massive amounts of orange juice to the point i am scared i might overdose on Vitamin C. My freeze and fridge is packed full of bagels, waffles, pancakes, sausage, bacon, biscuits, and anything else you might desire to fix breakfast for a king. I cant make it a day without eating some sort of breakfast food.

Today i ate a sausage, egg, and cheese croissant. It was so good that i wanted another but was out so i fixed scrambled eggs with cheese and ate it on toast. If i cant get this under control i am going to gain 100 pounds!

Another difference is my nausea. I never had any of that upset stomach, nausea, vomiting, morning sickness or what ever you want to call it. My sister was so jealous that i never went through that but this time around it seems i have been really nauseous. Especially first thing in the morning and it subsides around 2 in the afternoon. I still haven't actually thrown up and now as i approach 11 weeks it seems to be subsiding some as well as my constant tiredness.

I am so excited for this journey and can not hardly wait the 5 to 9 weeks it will be before we find out what we are having. As bad as i want a little girl i am not getting my hopes up. I will love this baby boy or girl and it seems to me that adding another boy to are family would be almost easier as we already know the routine. Adding a girl however would be a new adventure and a cute girly one at that.

So far so good though. My blood pressure looks good, i have yet to gain any weight, and i am coming out of my first trimester slump. All looks and feels well for a great beginning to a now 29 more week journey.

First Day Of School

So today is the day. Phabian is at school and MJ and I are at home. It is so awkward for me to only have one child here with me but i know he is in good hands.

We left the house at 7:15 this morning. We walked to my MIL's house and waited til about 7:30 to walk over to the school. We got there early and waited in the waiting area. At 5 til 8 they took my baby in the room. He didn't even say goodbye at first. I had to call him back to give me a hug and kiss and to tell him to be good and that i would be back at 11:30 to pick him up. He could have cared less. MJ on the other hand had a fit. He was so upset that bubby was gone. He wanted to go with him. It was so sad to watch my baby MJ cry over his bubby. We returned home and now we are chilling together just me and him. Well right now he is watching Handy Manny and drawing me a picture and i am, well, i am writing this blog.

Here are a few pictures from this morning and drop off.

I love this shirt: Holding out for chocolate milk!

Gotta love the fake cheese lol

Granny with Phabian in the waiting room.

Another one...he was so excited that Granny walked him to school.

I am still in disbelief that my first born son is even old enough to go to school, but i guess you blink and time flies by. I only shed a few tears this morning only because he wasn't even going to tell me goodbye. I mean when did he get to be so big that he didn't need to tell mommy bye. He is so confident and so happy about this experience where i am still a little anxious and apprehensive about it. I trust the teachers to take care of him but he is my baby. No one will ever care for him the way i do and even though it is only 3 1/2 hours a day that is still longer than he has ever been away before (besides at family's homes). I know i will adjust and MJ and i will begin to enjoy this time together but right now i am a little sad about it. He grew up too fast and next year MJ will be gone too. It is just so hard to let go even if they are ready to go.

It make me wonder how many moms they have drop off a kid and then come back an hour later in tears not ready to let their baby grow up. That's kind of how i feel. I just wanna run back and get him and say no its not time for him to grow up yet. He is too little to be in school doing work and learning letters. He is still just a baby in my eyes. I still remember bringing him home from the hospital. When and how did this happen? When did he get so big? How did i miss it? These are all the questions and more running through my head.

Well all i hope everyone is having a good day and i will update more about how his day went later when he gets home and we talk about it.