I Can't Believe He is 6

Alive

I have been busy with life.

Not anything extravagant but just life with three kids and a husband.

And ya know what its good. Life is good!

The kids got a bunk bed yesterday. Its nice and I love it. They love it. It gives them more space in their room and it has drawers in the steps for added storage space. Its a winner all around.

My Hubby and I have been working on some minor (and I do mean minor) issues we have been having in our relationship. Without going into details it is thing like time management, alone time, and intimacy. I think things all marriages go through when u have been married for almost 7 years.

But I am lucky because we are very open with one another. We are able to easily talk about everything without holding back because of fear. We have decent communication besides the normal man to woman translation. You know men and women say the same thing but interprete words very differently.

The kids are doing great. MJ is nearing pre-k graduation. I can't believe how fast this year has flown. Phabian is almost done with kindergarten which is insane.

I am happy to report Phabian has been doing much better at school. I am not sure what changed but we have been trying to give more positive rewards and it seems to be working. So far so good.

Sioné is growing way too fast. He is 16 months old almost. He is so big...literally. he is 31 inches tall and 27 pounds. Bigger then either of his brothers at this age. I am enjoying every moment of him being this age. I know too soon it will be gone.

And me...well...I'm still working on me. It is a constant improvement and work or art. Like a panting that is ever changing and developing. My temper is getting better and I wish I could say my tolerence was getting better but as I said...work in progress right here.

So yea. Life is good. I have a beautiful family. Great friends. And does it get any better than that?

Time

It keeps going. No matter what I do. No matter where I go. It just keeps ticking on.

My kids are growing up. They are getting bigger both physically and mentally. I am wondering now how to protect them.

There are a lot of things they need protecting from in the world. There is also that fine line between when to step in and when to step back.

Phabian is starting to hear things from other kids. Things we have not talked about yet. Things I don't even know how to begin to address with a almost 6 year old.

I knew the day would come when the "talk" would be had. I even knew it was coming fast. I however wasn't prepared when Phabian came home from school the other day and told me that a friend was telling him about a girl that "sexed" him.

I just stared blank faced along with my husband. I knew Phabian was waiting on a response but I was stunned.

Then my husband and I almost synchronized said what does sexed mean.

Phabian said it meant the girl took his shirt off. Then he ran off to play. We were left breathing a sigh of relief but still knowing it was time for that "talk" to be had.

This is where we are now...how? What? Who?

Should his father and I approach the subject with him together or just one of us? Should we include MJ in the talk since he starts kindergarten in July or wait til a different, but inevitable, time approaches? How much is too much information for a 6 year old? And how do we express to him that this is something to be discussed at home and not at school?

I feel adrift in a storm. I knew it was coming so why are we so unprepared?

Any help is appreciated and needed. I am soliciting advice. Books, shows, anything to help us along.

Tell me your stories cause I really need the help.

Today

Today started out really...well...crappy. That is the only way to describe it.

The kids got up at 6am cranky and mad. Sioné was screaming his lungs out for no apparent reason. I spilled a whole cup of scolding hot coffee on my foot. It was all crappy.

Then as if my prayers had been heard, Sioné calmed down. I got the boys off to school. We went to Kmart so I could get Marcus a Valentine's Day present (wink wink). And then Sioné and I came home and had breakfast.

It got better. It will get better.

Tomorrow is my birthday. Half way to 50 and don't even have half the answers. But what I do know now is that is actually okay to not have them. And maybe that is the best answer to know.

Best of Friends