Wednesday, February 1, 2012


Have you ever needed something so bad but not been able to put words to it?

Have you ever needed something from someone but not been about to speak the words out loud?

I have so much going on in my head right now and i dont think i have the courage or words to get it out right now.

Its hard to be truly honest.

We put stuff out into the world and call it truth but how much of it is real truth and how much of it is the happy version of the truth that we are willing to share.

How much are we willing to bare our souls to people we dont really know. How often have you found yourself typing out a blog or facebook post and then you back track and retype it so it is a happier, less depressing version of the truth.

Its too raw. Too sad. Too much to share.

What will people say? Will they think you are a hypocrite? A bad person? A lyer?

Things are going around and around and at the point i am not sure where they will land.

Maybe one day i will put words to it and send it out into the world, but for now it stays locked in my head. A wordless letter of emotions.

I'm just not strong enough right now to let it all hang out.


Laura McIntyre said...

Hugs from all us.

Hope your ok and here if you want to talk x


Mom24 said...

Good luck Courtney. Thinking of you. You can always email me and share, you know I'll keep it to myself.