New Member of the Family

Well we have a new member of the family. It was very unintentional. This beautiful cat has been hanging around my house for the past week. She looks to be in good health. Very shiny coat not skinny. She is also very friendly. She will come to me and let me pet her. She played with the kids the other day on the porch. Well yesterday we gave her some milk and ham and the kids let her in the house. I freaked out and ran her out. Well tonight she came back and apparently now we have adopted her. She comes and goes as she pleases since she is obviously not a house cat. She will come in for a few hours at a time and then sweetly go to the door and sit till you let her out. This works for me. The kids love her and Phabian named her Sophie. So we will see where this goes but in the mean time here is some pics.


She is beautiful. I always said i never wanted another cat but i guess we can see how this relationship works out. She doesn't like to be inside for a long time so she comes in to eat what we give her and rest (when the kids allow) and then she goes to the door and we let her out. She returns when ever she feels like it. I think i can live with a mostly outdoor cat. She is MJ's new bestest friend. He cries when she wants out and chases her when she come in. Poor cat didn't know what she got herself into.

Prayer Request

Hey everyone i was going to wait before i mentioned this since we don't know much but some extra prayers can never hurt. My grandma in Florida has to go in for a biopsy next week. They found a pea sized lump in her left breast. The doctor is pretty sure that they will be able to remove the whole lump when they do the biopsy and then we will know what it is and how to proceed. We would really appreciate the prayers and well thoughts. She is 82 years old. She quit smoking 15 years ago when she had her quadruple heart bypass. She has been in a decline with insulin dependent diabetes and is tired a lot. We only get to see her once a year and i have never been terribly close with her but she is my grandma and i love her. I am praying for the best results. We have no history of breast cancer in the family so i am hoping maybe it is just a cyst or non malignant mass. Please send prayers her way and i will update more when i know the exact dates and results.

Tears

Have you ever had one of those days where you just want to sit and cry. With no real reason or no explanation except that you just feel the overwhelming desire building inside you like a volcano and if you don't just let it out you might explode. Today is one of those days for me.

I think it has been coming for awhile. There are a lot of things on my mind and dealing with stress has never been my strong suit. Today i woke up to my husbands work calling. They ask him to come in, i am assuming, because someone called off. Now i don't normally have a problem with this especially it being this close to Christmas. We need all the money we can get and overtime is more than welcome. Today was just not the day that i needed him to say yes and rush off to save the day. I needed him home with me and the kids to possibly save the day here. The bottom line is he didn't even ask me if i minded that he spent one of his 2 days off at work or if i had plans today, he just told them yes and left. Well not just left, we fought! Neither of us made out points. I was too hysterically crying to even make sense. I said somethings i didn't mean and now i am feeling even worse.

Being a stay at home mom is stressful. Awhile back i wrote a post about all the things i do titled My Yesterday. In it i ranted about my husband and talked about all the things i do day to day as a SAHM. I try not to bitch and i try not to complain and then i end up exploding over something that shouldn't have been that big of a deal. I just feel like he could have ask me if we needed to do stuff today or if maybe i had plans for us. In actuality i did have plans for us. We needed to go to the grocery store as i really don't have anything to feed the kids for lunch. I has also promised the kids that their daddy was off today and we would do something fun as a family. So now i am hungry and disappointed that i lied to my kids. Now maybe things would be different if he had just ask me if i minded or showed some concern for the fact that i seemed quiet upset but the fact of the matter is he did neither, and it hurts!

Adding to the stress and my emotions is my pregnancy/non pregnancy/weird body. I take a pregnancy test every month because i no longer have a period due to my IUD (i know TMI). This is what my doc told me to do so that i could be 100% that i am not preggers. SO for almost 3 years now, on the 1st of ever month, i take a pregnancy test. Every month it is negative. Now most women out there know that taking a pregnancy test can be fun or scary but for me it is agonizing. I hate it and i dread it every month. I want more kids and i think a part of me every month hopes that it will end up positive and the logical part of me tells me that it isn't good timing. So every month when it comes back negative it is a little stab to the heart of hope. I said all of that to say this.

I took a pregnancy test on the 5th i was behind a few days than normal on taking it. In the little box the line that shows up to tell you if you are or are not pregnant wasn't there all the way but there was part of a very very light pink line. Almost like it was saying you might be but I'm not telling. So now i have to wait a week and take another one just to see if it was a dud test or if i am pregnant. Now my mind reels at the thought that i might actually be pregnant. Hubby and i agreed to wait til our youngest son is potty trained before TTC again. Plus i have an IUD in and they say that the chance of miscarriage if they remove it is high but if you leave it in they don't know what damage it can do to the baby. It scares the holy poo out of me. I want a baby but not this way.

So there is my stress. On top of needing about a billion dollars to pay all the backed up bills and feed the family with, i might be pregnant and my hubby is working on his day off (which yes i know is the answer to the money problems). I just feel like i am going to go insane and there isn't a branch on the tree to cradle my fall.

West Virginia Fall

So fall is upon us here in the good ole WV. This is one of my favorite times of year. Now don't mistake the for my favorite season or holiday. I specifically like the month (usually October) when the leaves turn beautiful shades of gold, red, maroon, orange, and yellow. I love the smell in the air as the brisk breeze flows over my face. I love these few days. I took a few pictures yesterday as we drove home from McDonald's. They are all taken from the car and some as we were moving lol. I tried to clean most of them up a bit but some just didn't participate. So without further hesitation here are my shots from yesterday of the beautiful fall terrain in Charleston, WV!

I think i like fall so much because it means all the family holidays are coming up. Christmas is my favorite because it was my mom's favorite. Christmas was always the time of year that we spent the most time together. We decorated and cooked and spent a lot time of just talking. It brings back a lot of wonderful memories. So here is to the leaves falling and the cold weather heading in. I am so looking forward to the holidays even if we are broke!

Snipets of My Day