A Thousand Words Thursday

Yesterday while Phabian was at school MJ and i made biscuits from scratch! I have not had this much fun in awhile. Just watching him take so much precision in rolling and cutting the dough was enough to make my heart melt with pride and joy. Sometime between August and October he will start school as well and i will spend my mornings alone until Sione arrives. It is moments like these that i will miss the most.

What's Up With That?

So i am going to go on a rant, so bare with me here.

I want to be a healthy. I really do want to eat organic foods and exercise everyday. I would love to lose about 30 to 40 lbs and be in the shape i was in pre-kids. I want all these things desperately, but what no one tells you is that these things are sometime (if not always) the most difficult things you will do.

It is hard enough to find a balance between cleaning house, balancing the check book, paying the bills, chasing the kids, and time for myself to relax. When you add on trying too cook a healthy meal made entirely of organic healthy foods and 30 mins a day to exercise you have completely thrown me into a melt down. Now are these the only problems i have with this situation...NO!

Why is it that the whole country has their panties in a bunch about the obesity crisis (i don't mean for that to sound like i am making light of it because i know it is a serious epidemic), but it is still cheaper to buy a double cheese burger than an organic head of lettuce? I can buy canned foods for 1/2 the price of fresh fruits and veggies and yes they are not as nutritious but they are what fit in my budget. Times are hard and trying to make a meal from scratch is getting to be more expensive.

I long for the days where my mom use to fix fat filled, high calorie meals that filled our tummies. Yes they probably were not the most healthy but they filled us up and made us fill happy. How is it that our grandparents and our parents and even some of us grew up eating these high fat, high calorie, high sodium meals and we are still alive and kicking and in a lot of cases healthier than our children? When did it become necessary to eat nothing but lettuce and organic to not die when you are 40? Their are people living way past their hundreds now and not because they ate right everyday but because technology has expanded the ability for us to fix problems. My grandma didn't die because she ate fried chicken and greens she died because she smoked for 60 years. WTF? (BTW i am not saying that it isn't important to eat healthy because i know it is but geesh!)

I think i have the solution to the obesity epidemic in America. Lower the price of an apple to the price of a cheese burger and the raise the tax on fast food to make it too expensive for Plumber Joe (sorry couldn't help but through that in). If you cant afford it you wont buy it. I don't buy organic because i can't afford it. i am 22 years old and i ate fried foods, fatty steaks, and sloppy joe's growing up. I am relatively healthy. I don't think an organic veggie (unless you count what we grew in our own garden) ever crossed my plate as a kid. Please tell me i am not alone in this. Please tell me i am not the only mommy in the world who wants to do this but cant afford it.

As for the exercise...i really don't have time. i know that isn't an excuse but by the time i get the kid sin bed at night and collapse on the couch i don't want to move much less get up and do crunches or jumping jacks. So walk my kid to school everyday. Its about 6 block one way. I do this twice a day. 24 blocks a day 5 days a week. It is something, and a lot more than i am use to hence the sore muscles i have attached to my back side. I just wish i had more time. God can we please add about 4 extra hours in a day??? Wait...no...that wont work...then i would probably try to catch up on sleep or chase my kids even more!!!

I cant win!

Several Things

Well i guess i have a lot to blog about. Not really a lot just several different topics. I have been very scatter brained lately and cant seem to focus on any one thing. Maybe it is a cooping mechanism or something. My brain just doesn't seem to want to cooperate with what i need to get done.

Ok so yesterday i had a rant about the paternity test and wanting the results. I did manage to get hubby to call about them but they have not got them back yet. The lady told him that because of the delivery system sometimes they don't get them on Mondays and to call back on Wednesday and check. They will have them no later than Friday and when they get them they will print us a copy and we can pick them up so we wont have to wait on them to be mailed out. That made me feel a bit better. After he got off the phone i explained to him how i am feeling about waiting on the results. The best way i can explain it is that i feel like someone has a gun to my head and i don't know whether they are going to shoot me or walk away. It is nerve racking. I guess this hit a chord with him and he felt bad (which was not my intent) but he got up and started cleaning the kitchen (which i had been bitching about for days now). When he finished the kitchen he went and cleaned our bedroom. It is the place where everything without a place ends up stacked, piled, and put in a corner. So needless to say it was a cluttered mess. He fixed it and cleaned it from top to bottom. I was so happy.

We had also go a book shelf from my dad's house that my mom had made for me when i was like 10. It is hand made and very simple but means a lot to me. We placed items like pictures and stuff on the top two shelves and then on the bottom shelf is all of my books (that i could find) and photo albums. It feels so nice to have something decorative in my house. Since we rent and not own i don't ever put a lot of effort into decorating. I seem to always be ready to pack up and move. I took a few pictures of the book case. Phabian just had to have a picture with it. We left the middle shelf empty for the kids books that Santa is bringing them. My mom's picture watches over us. The poem reads:

Home In Heaven

I'm safely home in Heaven,

though I know you miss me so.

The love I've always felt for you,

within my heart still flows.

My spirit will remain with you

every single day, appearing as a

rainbow or as ocean waves at play.

I'm in the gentle rains that fall,

and in the morning dew.

All you see that's beautiful

reflects my love for you.

I didn't mean to cause you pain,

my time had simply come.

The work that I was meant to do

on earth had all been done.

I'm safely home in Heaven,

where eternal peace is mine.

And where, when God has called you

too, I'll be forever Thine.

Bobbie Wilkinson

On to a dinner note lol. Last night i used a recipe that a girl from my parenting group gave me for quiche. I changed the ingredients to make it a turkey, bacon, and cheese quiche. It was so yummy. I took pictures cause it turned out so much better than the first one i made.

If anyone wants the recipe ask and i will post it. But i think i am done now. Its long enough for one day lol.